Saturday, December 1, 2012

ello world.

well it's been minute since I've been on here, not sure why but o well. Nothing like getting on here and seeing the layout you paid someone to make not working. And yes you read that right Im a loser and paid someone to make my shiat. I'll try to fix it but we shall see how epically that fails.

Any way guess I just need to vent, what else do you do on a blog any way right?
for starters people are CRAZY or maybe its me actually I know I have issues but I see a professional for those and well they reassure me that I'm actually not as bad as I think just maybe too "real" for most people which lets be honest we already knew that. 
I honestly don't understand that though, since when did talking shit about someone and being there friend the next hour become okay and more so the norm? frankly if I'm going to talk badly about anyone its because I don't like that person not now, not in two hours, not next month. 
I live in this community of 200ish active duty marines and sailors which when we first got here I thought was going to be great. New place, new people, new command great awesome new start. And it took about ehh 2 weeks to realize how fake certain people were and when theres only 200 that ends up being a big majority. I find myself missing Lejeune more and more each week. Everyone is on this we work out kick, but they also party on the weekends and if you don't do either of those things or like in my case have a full time job and an almost 3 year old. I don't have time to revert back to high school and abandon my responsibilities, like ever. Or maybe I just choose not to, who knows, but in many "groups" I feel I've been shunned for these decisions.

which is actually one subject that's been on my mind lately what makes me not "friendable" I know not a word. Maybe my poor grammar and spelling?? 
not gonna care, I read someone describe me once as not having a filter and that I just say what I think with out caring. I smiled not gonna lie it brought cheer to me and they said thats what they enjoyed about me. It does seem many how ever, don't. 
Like the girl down the street with two kids, two baby daddies, that drinks smokes and parties on the reg.  not sure where she thought it was a good idea to ask for money on facebook, multiple times but I was seriously flabbergasted each time and it took the strength of thor and God combined to stop me from saying something sarcastic and oh so rude.
I could go on with the shit I see and hear but thats just not nice.
Maybe I've put myself on a  pedestal which is actually likely, not in a Im the shit sense but in a I don't take the bull shit sense. cause I don't especially after the last oh,,,,,, 5 years of my life.
too much drama, too many lies, too much hurt.
Im very over people and the one upping, the attention seekers, pity parties. 

Tuesday, June 19, 2012


Hello, I got on here in the nearly a year its been last week and wrote out a nice story and when I was done I don't if the internet froze or what happened but it would save/load so sorry no good story for you :(

quick update, I finished school am a licensed nail technologist, husband got back early we surprised him since I was still in school and doing finals the week he came home I told him I wouldn't be able to come but I took a leave and pushed my graduation back which was more then worth it and he was totally shocked.
I booked a photographer and she came as well as took pictures over charged me and never got me the photos so all I have are not so great phone shots :( needless to say I highly do not recommend Brandi Penn photography...

so after two weeks on the beach we had to go back home so I could finish school. After B's leave in March we all flew back together two days later we were moving into our house and 4 days after that we received orders to pcs to california in 3.5 weeks. luckily I could stop unpacking and the process to start re-packing wasn't to difficult. May 3rd we loaded up and head cross country, 5 days later we made it to our new home for the next 3 years. 

Mothers day happened to fall on our marriage anniversary this year and as I was flourished with gifts one them happened to be a furry four legged love.

His name is Koda,
and here is a slightly rare case of them getting along although its becoming less rare.

we love him.

Mrs. B-Dub

Sunday, September 25, 2011

School time

It's finally here, tomorrow I start school. Im excited but also nervous..I don't think it's going to be to much of a task actually I think the hardest part is going to be being away from Cambria 10 hours a day. But I'm nervous that I may be underestimating it, I know the are quite a few exams and boards you have to pass and although I've always been a good student and learn really quickly I've also been out of school for 4 years . So we I'll see how I do, hopefully I catch right on and this helps this deployment zoom by.

Thursday wasn't the greatest day for me, I feel I push the fact that my husband is gone out of my mind so I don't have to deal with it. For the most part it works I know he's deployed but if I don't think about him being deployed it doesn't bother me instead I just know he's gone and will be back around this time but try not to dwell on it. However when something doesn't go according to plan that really needs to its like a huge slap in the face, your husband is not here your all by yourself. I don't think of myself as an extraordinarily strong women, I handle what I'm dealt with to the best of my abilities. But even the strongest person can only stay that way for so long, everyone has there breaking point and I certainly meet mine. Needless to say I know I'm not by myself and am more than thankful for the amazing family and friends I have especially to have two of the greatest sister in laws a girl could ask for.

Mrs. B-Dub

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

the new.

LIfe is a crazy ride of corse I don't have to tell you that Im sure you already know. Im happy to say that life for me right now is pretty freaking amazing with the exception of my husband deployed! I feel I have finally grown up, ditched the drama, face book, a few friends and starting today hopefully a few bad eating habits but in all I feel like a whole new women. I will be starting school on the 26th of this month to become a nail technician its a 4 month school so I should be graduating just before I need to pack up again and head back to north carolina to welcome my amazing husband home again..

The deployment is a little over 2 months in and isn't too bad, on me that is. The hubby isn't doing the greatest so myself and his mother are doing everything in our power to make it as comfortable as possible. We spoil him. :) Cambria is growing at an alarming rate since we've been here she's gained nearly 3 pounds and grown 2 inches and is now even taller on the percentage scale then she has been practically her whole life. Not only that but her vocabulary is boomin' I swear everyday there is a new word. she says almost all of her colors, can count to 3, tries to sing the abc's, itsy bitsy little spider,patty cake. knows 8 dogs by there names(my parents have three, the in laws have 5) will tell you what dogs,cats,bears and sometimes cows say(woof,mow,roar,moo) AND I am super proud to say she has gone poop on the potty twice and is starting to tell me when she has to go haven't gotten a successful pee yet but we'll get there, she also says thank you correctly. It's crazy watching her learn so quickly while I hate that her daddy isn't here I am fortunate to be able to be with her at least until I start school.

Mrs. B-Dub

Wednesday, August 31, 2011


BIGGEST annoyance when companies try to screw over service members for deploying! Im am currently on the phone with AT&T and they are trying to charge us a early termination fee for canceling my husbands plan, good thing I have the soldiers and sailors act memorized after the huge fight with our ex-landlord. Also that I submitted his deployment orders. This seriously is pissing me off.
Im trying my hardest to NOT start screaming and cussing at Ilene how ever its becoming very difficult when this is the second time I have this issue since my husband left and the second time AT&T has tried to screw us out of money in the last month. Hopefully once Ilenes manger gets on the phone I can get my money back for that to, That being they changed our plane when we asked them not and then charged us for it making our plan $100 more then it should've been and no we don't go over our minutes or anything it was to lessen our plan but because we would loose our roll over minutes I askd to keep our current plan, apparently they thought they knew better for me lol.

Now they are telling me that I only asked to use my husbands orders to cancel one phone number as if I wanted to pay an early termination fee, so now because we chose to keep our phone numbers we have to pay an early termination fee. FUCK YOU AT&T!

Mrs. B-Dub

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

HEY YOU I need opinions!!!

today marks a great day, the day I deleted my Facebook account. Yes I am aware it never actually deletes which is good cause I plan on getting on and updating pictures of Cambria probably once a month but Im just tired of the drama.

I finally took my husbands advice and said fuck it. you wanna talk to me then do it but call or text me. And as I've said before Facebook is not a place for family its a place for friends. How ever so many of our family members seem to think the only way to keep in touch is via Facebook when that is not the case and simply because we don't comment or "like" your shit doesn't mean we don't care although often times thats exactly what it means.

And now I have a question for anyone/everyone reading this, referring to my blog two blogs ago HERE where I address my opinion along with some facts of second hand smoke. I would like YOUR opinion, do you agree/disagree and why or why not? also do you think I was overly dramatic at all? all comments would be greatly appreciated =D!

Mrs. B-Dub

Saturday, August 13, 2011

I hate facebook.

You know those inspirational pictures with the words like FREEDOM and a bald eagle. Okay now you know that one with the word AFGHANISTAN individual experiences may vary..then a pictures actually let me find it...

There we go, this^^^ picture is why I hate facebook, everyday I sign in and am reminded how not only individual troop experiences may vary but how there spouses experiences also vary.

Here this may piss a few people off but plain and simply put IN MY OPINION deployments are much different for infantry wives then they are for many non-infantry wives.
My husband doesn't have constant or even weekly and 99% of time monthly access to the internet in fact usually the only time he can get on is before they get to afghanistan and when they leave and are about to come home, and a phone call every other week is a lot of contact. Typically 5 out of 7 days he spends not a desk, room, shop, building but getting shot at somewhere else.
I wont say I miss my husband any more or less then any other wife Im just saying if you get to talk to your husband frequently while he's gone you have VERY little to bitch about.

I will never forget a wife once complaining to me about how worried she was that her husband didn't email her back the night before cause they would email at least twice a day and she hadn't heard from him in 12 hours. Now Im often a nice person and said oh wow that sucks, but inside I was thinking Are you FUCKING KIDDING ME?!?!?! your going to complain TO ME of all people. That is like complaining how you sprained your ankle and can't walk t0 someone who was in an accident paralyzing them from the waist down.

I will give props to some army wives I do not know how you handle 14-15 month deployments I was glad for you when they announced the 9 month plan.

Mrs. B-Dub